This one is more of a personal post for myself and really anyone who can relate. Just a warning, I am writing through this felling of being stuck...I am just trying to make sense of this, so thanks for joining me on this adventure. Let's dive in!
So where to start? (Bear with me as I write through this raw).
I guess I have been noticing a constant theme of "feeling stuck" surrounding me in my current reality. Like literally. I am not trying to judge the experiences around me, I am simply noticing and sensing this feeling of being stuck. Stuck. Stuck. STUCK.
What does that even mean?!
Well to me that means stagnate...unable to move due to a paralyzing feeling of not knowing what to do next...overthinking every move so much so that every possibility morphs into an impossibility. Stuck...unable to move with a splash of choosing to stay complacent, choosing to not make a move due to the fear of failure.
This feeling of being stuck brings me to what I am now just realizing but strangely has been a theme in all the books I am reading right now in addition to the podcasts, random
videos, and even my deep and appreciated conversations with my best friend.
What is within us, is reflected outside of us.
This is the simplest I could condense it down to. Our reality is a reflection of what is inside of us. As I am now reflecting through this post, it is no coincidence that I have been seeing this theme of "Stuckness" all around me. This constant noticing of this theme is the the universe shouting loud and clear that I need to address this feeling of being stuck from within myself.
What does this mean?
Well, to me this means taking time to dive deep within - having the hard conversations of why I am feeling this way. Pushing myself to notice my thoughts and pushing even more to allow those thoughts to exist without judgment and brining my attention back to the present moment. This has definitely been a learning experience - it is not easy to bring my attention to the present moment, but I am trying my best everyday. Trust me. This is a new life I am venturing into and with it comes lots of unlearning and relearning.
Let's dive into the details -
My outer reality and experiences are a reflection of my inner-self.
I have been observing this theme of feeling stuck all around me - thus, a reflection of what I am feeling within, which is stuck.
Now why do I feel this way?
Well, I think I am scared to take action. Even though I wrote about this in my latest blog post, I still feel fear. I feel fear of making the wrong decision even though I know that everything will work out. I still have a sense of doubt and I am feeling unsure of how to move past this feeling. In addition, I feel like I don't know where to start. I know I have so much knowledge that I have collected over the years, but I don't know where to start or how to start to share all of this. I have always felt a pressure to be perfect and I think this is carrying on into my current reality of wanting to be a successful blogger. So how do I break out of this? I know the response is simple - to release these expectations and allow myself to be present, but it is easier said than done.
So here I am, publicaly writing through this feeling to make space...I am not 100% sure what that consists of, but I will keep you posted. Until then, I am calling the universe for help.
First off, thank you for motivating me to write through this today. Writing has always served as a tool for me to communicate what I haven't found the strength to do so in voice - so thank you.
I want to ask for your help. I am feeling stuck. Can you help me move past these feelings in a way that I can learn? In a way that will give me the tools I need to grow into the best version of myself? I know that everything happens for us and not to us. I am putting this into your hands and I trust that you will guide me to where I need to be...to what I need to learn. I now release these feelings and embrace feelings of love, trust, and gratitude.
Con sol y amor,
Clearly, I do not know the answer to my own questions, but I hope that by asking the universe, having faith, and taking action - I will be guided to where I need to be.
Food for thought:
Do you remember that famous saying "Others often see what we can't see about ourselves." What if we start paying attention to what we see around us and take it as a hint from the universe to see that within us?
What do you think?
Challenge? Do you accept?
I challenge us to take some time to reflect within. Maybe these questions will serve as helpful reflection questions to dive deep into yourself.
Remember - our outer world is a reflection of our inner world - so why not take the time to get to know our inner-self. I believe by doing this, we can help ourselves create the reality we want.
Journaling Prompts - As my favorite advisor would constantly tell me..."Let's write through this!"
In this present moment how are you feeling?
How do you feel bringing awareness to your current self?
As you bring awareness, do you feel yourself wanting to drift into a future thought/worry? Maybe a past thought? Why do you think that is?
How does being present make you feel?
Do you ever catch yourself drifting into thoughts - Do you let yourself get carried off by them?
Let me know if you decide to journal or if you have any journaling prompts you would like to share!
With gratitude and sunlight,